January 31st . 2019

Heart Check

I don’t know you guys. In the month of January I had two panic attacks (one while driving, one the whole while trying to sleep. So yeah, fun). And it’s all about my heart. It just feels pained. I actually think it’s tight muscles in the general vicinity of my heart. But once you start worrying about your heart it is REALLY a viscous cycle. Cold sweats and all. So, I’m keeping an eye on it, but also trying not to think about it, you know. My mantra tonight is: if I can survive January. That’s it. That’s my mantra.